Every Sunday, my mind runs helter-skelter. This Sunday, it was even worse. 

Was already on the brink of tearing my hair out from MA tutorial (EVERY Sunday is finish MA tutorial day goodness -.-), plus getting irritated with my nose which was leaking like a bloody tap which effectively blocked both my eyes.. When suddenly my mind (and subsequently body) was set into OPERATION PANIC. I started to think 10 steps ahead of everything, and then looked at the XOXO orders and.. panicked again. I was and am very desperate to at least recover our costs. So I started doing everything I could and mobilized all the necessary people I could think of. Damn irritating I am I know. 

MY NOSE IS BEING A BITCH, EVEN NOW.


You know, when I have my kcs and helter-skelter moments, I get things done faster and more efficiently. I operate on stress and deadlines and speed much better. But that said, it's DAMN no fun having your brain constantly on the run and worrying about this about that. I swear my nose is not getting better because I'm not resting. My brain, that is. And okay, now that XOXO panic-for-the-day is over, it's back to completing my tutorial. It's not difficult cos I can get them right - it's just tedious which is driving me bananas. Gonna brace myself for the crazy week ahead.


Sometimes, I thank God DZ and Ben exist in my life. At times when my confidence is taking a beating, there are friends like the dwarf who would give me the utmost pledge of confidence, which means alot to me. And my other best friend who would listen to me whine non-stop on our car rides and start singing away. Makes all this missing of the bf and crazy emotional what-not a little much easier to deal with. (Especially on a night like this, oh good Lord.)


Still, it's me alone against the world, yet again. 
Till then.

So it has been a WEEK since the boyfriend dumped me for layers of thick winter cloth and all those white stuff that falls magically from the sky during winter. Yay Day 7, so erm 140 plus more to go hurhur. And in this week which has somehow passed pretty fast (yet slow at some points), given how busy school and all its stuff have been. Good for me, I guess! And in this week, I have magically fallen ill (magic, cos I don't ever fall sick) but it's just a bitch of a nose and throat that's all! 

Sick of sending emails out (and watching motivational videos on Youtube - sorry needed some inspiration lah), so I thought I'll finally blog about DATE DAY! :) I don't think we can remember when (or even if we ever did) we went on a proper date, like date kinda date. Follow me? Without any running around to get winter stuff, to run errands or other stuff that were exceptionally.. unromantic. HAHA of course I'm not complaining. Just that a change in the wind direction is always most welcome! :) Plus it was the last day before I got dumped!


We traipsed around where ever we wanted to go, stopping at whim at places to do things we wanted to do, which was fun as usual :) Although Dr Parnassus was one of the most un-understandable movies I have ever watched. I was literally quite dumbfounded by what the show was about - I even fell asleep hurhur. Followed by awesome pawsome Marmalade dinner <3 I think I can eat the crabmeat linguine forever and I won't get sick of it. Love! Everything about the day :) More of such when you come back okie!

From the BFF who came over to study today:

HY: "See it's almost a week already! Altogether 20 weeks right, so 1 down, 19 more to go!"
TYL: "Hur hur"


But you know what? I appreciate that valiant attempt at optimism, as patronizing as it was. Hee, bless her cotton socks <3

At the end of a tiring 3 tutorials day today, I'm grateful for a reprieve that was in lunch with Ben and taking comfort in the knowledge that this is a friend I can count on even in in the throes of hell. And of course, for dearest friends who drive to school and have the kindness in their hearts to fetch me to and from school. Car rides with the best friend and Grandpa Kenneth are always filled with laughter - because we're retarded people like that.

Today on the car ride home in Grandpa's car, we were mer-ring the entire journey about how we want to be in Europe too, with all the snow and well, snowball fights. (Amongst other topics like marriage and career and cars - yes we are not retarded 24/7.) He told me about the travel blog that the old people are maintaining and I went home to take a look and AAAHHHHH. 1X MAJOR ENVY ): We were like, "WE NEED TO CREATE SNOW HERE." Yes we do ): And we need to get our asses to Europe one year from now, Grandpa! MER.


So anyway! In happier news, I came home and checked the clock - it's 12pm in Switz! So I turned on the Skype and tadaahhhh - skype time with the boyfriend! It's -5 there, and bloody hell he was only wearing 2 layers AND HE SAID HE WASN'T COLD. I totally bet it was said out of pride and his head probably swelled when I praised his balls of steel. HAHAHA :D Glad he know he's doing okay and is not freezing (oh well, according to what he says). Saw snow-covered streets, buildings, trees, windows.. and was MIGHTY envious again MER. Nevertheless, still very happy to be seeing Europe through his eyes :) Well, 30 mins of superduper interrupted Skype was enough to end my long day!

Lovin' our little travel blog with the audience of 2 (of course) too! <3


And here's a collection of photos from the days that led up to his departure! :)

So, it wasn't as emotional a last meetup as I thought it would be. It was totally normal and regular it hardly felt like he was going to leave in a few hours' time. More like 'vanish' for the next 5 months. MER.

Anyhow! Cos we are so obsessed with proving our ability in flooring the other party, our gifts for each other were testament of our effort and well, love :)
I was admittedly floored (not touched to tears, dude), and I'm glad he liked my 'ammo box' too. I super love my (33) days montage board! Wheeee <3 And this is only for the first month HAHAHA.

Okay fine, so they are hardly chronicles. I realized the other night that I still had a batch of Japan photos yet to be up! Tardiness queen it's understandable :)

I was getting the photos up on Photobucket when I realized.. I do miss Japan ): As much as I felt like the holiday was too long and all, I actually did LIKE that place. And I miss being ON A VACATION. Being in school only highlights how fun trips are - even if it might not have seem half as fun while you were there. I superduper envy like hell the people going on exchange! OKAY. No more exchange talk - I still can't get over the fact that I'm not going when more than half of my social circle in school is going come next year. 


I WANT TO GO LONDON NOW. 

I'm so glad today is finally ending, because it has been a really bad one. It's a case of waking up on the wrong side of the bed, coupled with many other things that happened in the day (like not understanding a lecture and getting fragged). I was filled with hatred for the world I even found it difficult to smile. 

So I did something for myself and skipped a lecture (yeah it might hardly be considered something good). Which saved me from potentially killing myself from not understanding it. Stayed in the club room and read my history notes, and it's sick how studying something you genuinely like puts you in a better mood almost pronto. I think if I had to study Math in any goddamned fucking way, I would have died a million times over already.


Well, still some stuff that redeemed this day, no matter how slightly.

# Catching up with some old friends from Peter Pan today, whom I haven't seen since well, August. That's a hell long of a time! Besides getting teased and being the TOTALLY RELUCTANT centre-of-attention, it was all good. Caught up much with one of my favourite OG-mates whom I don't always get the chance to talk to, and we promised to lunch together soon. Great stuff :)

# Dinner with the bestfriend and well, FRIEND whom we are going to treat as a fellow girlfriend too. A belated dinner to celebrate Cand's birthday, and as usual with the 3 of us, laughter was aplenty at the table. I totally dig how bimbotic, critical and el***** we are. Even more awesome how Tri Uni brought us together. See lah Eugene Chua don't want to come! Tell you to come already still want to act hardworking -.- (HAHA another 5 secs of fame for you okay HEE)


I just realized that both groups are my OGs from August. How cool is that?!! :)


Well, I missed the boyfriend's company today which probably added to this sucks of a day. But oh well, I guess it feels even more sucky to be stuck at home with a nasty nose and throat. (No, he didn't cop out of the fragging! Although it was probably a convenient excuse to HAHA.) 


Really HATE today with a vengeance. I can't wait for it to be over. 
And I'm so glad there's no school tomorrow. Go away, Clementi.

Sometimes, I find like something is choking me. Like, there are many things I want to be doing, people that I want to be with, BUT I ONLY HAVE SO MUCH TIME. It might sound like an excuse, but it's really true. I try to prioritize as much as possible, and even when I'm not physically around somewhere, I'm still functioning. 

I sometimes (okay, most of the time) feel like I have no time for myself.

Damn tempted to vanish off the face of this Earth and leave all the things I have to do at the dust of my departure.. and I'm pretty sure the world will still continue revolving. 
Because I understand the essence of why no one is indispensable in this huge world we live in.

C*lash was an ultimate flop party and really the sole reason I dragged my ass (after having a 10-6 school day of lessons and running around for stupid Harvard) out is cos Kel was in the OrgComm and Cand was modelling. Or else, omg it would have been a TOTAL waste of my time. Not like I don't already have not enough!


So anyway, Harvard today was the ultimate shit. Bangla-ed ttfm like nobody's business - not just me, but Eug Cam Mer and all of us designated bang las of the day. Running around in heels ALL OVER stupid the conference (which now spans 3 buildings btw) is damn no deal. 
... OKAY I want to quit bitching cos firstly, I totally volunteered to help and secondly, I'm too tired to bitch now. Hee :) 

I'm going to post photos and SLEEP cos tomorrow is another of stupid Harvard and we have to wake up at SIX. Gaaaaahhhhh sometimes I catch myself and seriously wonder what am I doing this for, but I never find an answer and realize it doesn't matter at the end of the day. Suck thumb and just do :D

Because of all you VOYEURS hahahaha, I am LOCCCKIINNGG UP. Idiots!

PEACE LA HAHAHAH :)))) 

AWESOME PAWSOME.

Still a little shaken by how swiftly I went up to J & A yesterday, said I wanted to drop AIS, before proceeding to pout, and all within a MINUTE, I was left with 4 modules and just had to throw in all my bid points for the module I have always wanted to do. 
(Perks of being in the Club and hence recognized btw.)

Shaken cos I've always believed in the adage of "don't fix what ain't broken". There wasn't an issue with AIS and I could really be happily doing all of my 5 pre-allocated mods, but NO. Some bone in me just wants to be itchy-backside and attempt against all friggin' odds to map that mod in exchange. 1x itchy backside. If I live to regret, tell me I deserved it.


OKAY SO NOW, I'M BACK TO BEING A HISTORY STUDENT AGAIN! OMG EXCITES. (So excites I spent last night and this morning reading about Europe wheeeeeee :D)
And worried. I can't believe I'm taking this mod myself - maybe that's what they meant when they said Uni is all about independent learning. Okay c'mon I can do this -.-


Time to get dressed bai!

P.S. Love my user icon btw ;))))

"Eh must I plan a surprise for your birthday?
"NO?! You what era."
"So can I just freaking tell you to come for some lunch/dinner?"


Never for one second in my life have I doubted that this lady friend of mine is my BESTEST friend in the entire world. 

<3 LOVE you and good luck for Thurs! You know I'll be thereeee! :)

A very simple and typical Saturday it was yesterday: the boyfriend came over to play around with our Macs, ran around my area running errands, settling for lunch at 3pm (YEAH my life is screwed), cut my hair (whee!) and met the gfs for dinner at District 10 :)

I don't know since when did my life become so routine-like, yet different at the same time. It's like I spend my everyday the SAME way, with probably the SAME people, but it's never the same. Things change everyday and I find it exciting how anything that happens in a day can possibly and potentially change the course of events, or even your life. I guess this is what they call "living for the moment". I hope nothing changes with the start of the new school term. As mundane as school might be, I foresee lots of (personal) challenges and exciting events ahead! Even if there might be an important part of me sorely missing from my side, I know everything will still remain the same - I can feel it in my bones, don't ask how.

"OMG I just saw you yesterday -.-"
"And the day before, and okay fine the entire week"
"Tell me about it - like married already like that you know -.-"



I MISS MY GIRLFRIENDS ALOT TOO! Even if the whole world crumbles on you, girlfriends would still be there. "Every girl needs girlfriends" - swear by this. Awww :))


Okay time to get ready for school. Did I mention?! I'm damn excites that my BFF is FINALLLLLYYY coming to the same school as me!  :D:D